Ich weiß, seit Ewigkeiten kein Post und dann komm ich mit sowas an. Es sei euch versprochen, dass es bald ein Update gibt. Ein persönliches :) Aber heute verlangt es der Anlass udn eine gewisse liebreizende Deutsche, dass ein Livebericht verfasst wird. Seid ihr bereit?

( Austria's Next Topmodel ... )

okay, here we go. it's october 31st again and this means that exactly one year has passed. and it really wasn't my year ...

so let's forget these past 365 days and declare the next year as mine, starting from tomorrow. that means all kinds of trouble better stay away from me, no matter if it's love trouble, college trouble or job trouble. DO NOT WANT. and more importantly: do not deserve.
i think this is the start for something new, thanks to everyone who got me this far :) i love you.

title belongs to the weepies

so that's what i get after months.

i feel like crying now, it's just not fair that he has that power over me.

i just finished the season opener of grey's anatomy and i am such a weak, unstable person.
seriously ... those people are not real, yet i cried like a baby near the end. if you saw it already you probably know what i am talking about.

well, at least i can say that was the only thing that made me sad during the last few days. i had quite a lot of fun, like yesterday when i was at two freud concerts on one day. funfunfun. i took a shitload of pictures, but the lighting wasn't too good. or maybe i just don't know enough about cameras :) i thought about taking classes, but i don't know where.

and now i will take a shower and still believe in the possibility of fairytale endings. a tv show can not ruin my faith.


title belongs to casual wish (i don't know the band or the song, but it just fits)

sooo, i went to the hair dresser. but as i wrote in the comments yesterday, i am not a really risky person :)
means all i let them do was to cut it a little shorter and part it in a different way. no more center part, it's on the side now. that's why i kind of have an oversized bang on one side now ... it looked different yesterday than it does now. i washed it and i am obviously not good at restyling it the way it was. but i guess it still looks a bit different than before i cut it. so that's good!

but yeah, as promised ... picture:

so i quit the annoying and stupid job i started this month. you know i never quit anything, but that was just too much.
i am not even to bothered that i gave up, it wouldn't have gone anywhere. i guess i will just start studying again and wait with the job search a little while longer.

i am thinking about getting my hair cut. i just don't know if i can work up the courage... so tell me if i should or not!


title belongs to kendall payne

i don't even know why i didn't post all that time. maybe because i made such a fuss about the exam and then everything went wrong.
but it's not like anyone of you doesn't know what happened, so what's the big deal: consider this my online walk of shame. i fucked up and you'll have to cross your fingers once again some time in november. i should start studying again, but ewww. do not want.

i will start a new job on september 1st. it's not full time and i don't know if i can do it after all, because they seem to be quite sure that i really have to learn a lot about design, architecture and furniture before i can write stuff about it. well, let's wait and see. september will be the month in which they can see if i am the right person for the job. and the month in which i can decide if it's the right thing for me or not. in the ad they were looking for someone who can do 40 hours, but at the interview they somehow switched to part time, which kind of sucks. but hey - i will tell you all the juicy bits there are when you are writing for a magazine that portrays furniture. (god i hope there are some)
why again doesn't austria have a music magazine that actually pays journalists for their awesome work and knowledge? oh i kind of missed lj and the possibilities to whine in every paragraph haha.

speaking of music journalism: i survived frequency 08 (and some others did too. say hi to the busy alex and the brave agnes. kudos ladies. i always had the feeling i should be grateful for the amount of work i had to do whenever i saw you being all stressed hihi)
first day: really hot. sunshine. the first interviews ... a bit awkward. didn't sleep in a tent but in a bus. which was nice except for the fact that c. snores.
second day: of course it wouldn't be frequency without the rain. i managed to do only one interview on that day and still ... nobody called me out on it. not even when i managed to delete the recording of said interview right after being done talking: the indelicates where awesome enough to completely confuse me. went back to the bus somewhere in the middle of the manic's set and managed to lock myself in. i got a lot of sleep that night.
third day: it's a wonder i didn't freeze to death, i swear. I SWEAR. when all the work was done and i went to see the killers somebody jumped on my left foot. didn't hurt though as it was frozen. in between 2 am and 7 am i was pretty sure i would freeze. but hey, here i am. and i interviewed the killers. yay!

i'll go back to vienna tomorrow. i guess that means i'll be around more ... let me know how your summer has been treating you so far. i kind of don't know since i have been absent from lj/icq/msn/alltheotherstuff.

hugs,
c.

title belongs to the indelicates

thanks to all of you who replied to the last entry and told me i would be fine. i appreciate it but i am still not quite sure if i will be fine.
the waiting is the hardest part. because it gives you so much time to freak out.

one of my classmates failed the exam today. and she is one of the best, normally. i try not to think about it or about the questions the others were asked, because holy shit, i don't think i would be able to answer them. i have one more day and i will try to get as much done as possible. and then it's your turn to cross your fingers :)

oh, and congratulations to greg (he passed today) i am really proud of you!

i hope i can get back to you on thursday with good news :)
hugs for everybody
c.

title belongs to keane

i am starting to get really scared now. but don't think that i would study harder because of that. no. it's so pathetic.
i am scared and i can't do anything about it and gaaaah why won't it just get away. take it away please.

or - come up with a way i can remember all this stuff that just won't fit in my head.
whatever it might be ... please hurry :(


title belongs to john vanderslice

second week of being at home.

the days pass by way too fast and there is way too much stuff that should fit in my brain. ugh, i hate it.
2 more weeks, then it's over.

i miss you all,
c.

title belongs to adele

sorry i was gone.

life wasn't quite easy and most of you know what went down. for those who don't (i am looking at you raiden. sorry for being such a sucky, non-communicative friend) here's a short recap:
i grew a lot of gray hair, but finally i managed to finish my thesis and i handed it in right on time. and from what i heard, i should get a good grade. so no more stupid thesis-writing for me. thanks to all the people who listened to me whining and bitching, i am quite sure i couldn't have done it without you.
so the next big thing is to pass my final exam on may 29th. if i manage to do that, you are all invited to one hell of a night of drinking, singing and all the other stuff.

other than college related crap there was another big mess going on. to sum it up: i made a wrong decision by trusting the wrong person. i really thought that this time it might actually work out, i was insanely happy and i just didn't see what it really was. so to all of you who called it early on: you were right. and i hate that you were right. i still don't know why it was so easy for him to walk out of my life like that, but apparently it was. i still use his fabric softener and i could cry every time i put on a tshirt because it smells the way he did in the beginning, when everything was perfect. but i know that no one who loves you should treat you the way he did, so i would never forget what happened in the last few weeks. i hope this somehow makes sense. and despite all of that i still believe that someday everybody meets a person that is just the right one. so yeah, enough with the relationship talk, i've been thinking about that way to much lately.

what else is going on? i saw a new viennese band twice in the last couple of weeks. they are called freud and i really think they could make it. give them a listen, they are on myspace. i took pictures at their concerts as well and i discovered my love for photography all over again. i would love to have a better camera, but my old one is doing a nice job too :)
i will be doing the summersplash thing again this summer. three weeks this time. hahaha. you can wish me luck right now! but i kind of need the money. my sister and i want to go to san diego in august... after that i will have to start looking for a job. ohmygod. the actual real life will start. color me scared.

okay, so i think that's it basically. hm yeah. that's it. i love you!

title belongs to cake bake betty

p.s.: i'll try to be here a little more than i was lately :)

it's friday evening and i sit in a library. life really is a bitch.

(and it's not that i am making any progress, so that even even makes it worse.)

maybe i should go home and sleep. for all i know that might be as productive as staying here.
ugh.

i hope your friday night is better!
c.

title belongs to manchester orchestra

i promised a huge update didn't i? right before christmas?

oh ... well. i am sorry i guess. a lot of stuff happened, most of you know about it but those who don't - you don't have to be sad, nothing too exciting :)

right now the biggest thing is finishing my thesis. 17 more days until i hand it over for the first time. and yes, i am freaking out. but it will be fine, right? everything's going to be alright. as always. so i'll most definitely keep you posted on how it went. expect and OHMYGODITSOVER post sometime in march.

i am incredibly tired all the time. getting up early is nothing i like i guess :) but i got stuff i am looking forward to, so that makes it better. i'll see panic on march first and a day later ... well ... let's just say i am looking forward to march 2nd. yes.

hm. i should probably go to bed.

sorry i am away so much.

love you,
c.

title belongs to vampire weekend

merry christmas everybody.

there will be a bigger update in the next couple of days, but right now i'll just leave you my favourite christmas song 2007 and wish you happy holidays.

back in vienna, not much to tell though. i feel incredibly empty to be honest.

tomorrow i will start my second to last week of work and after that it's going to be "back to the unknown" as i like to call it.
i really hope i can go back there once summer is here. no scratch that. right now i would rather go far far away and try something really shocking, new and utterly perfect.
but since stuff like that never happens, going back to the newspaper would be awesome.

i slept so much this weekend, it's incredible. there's nothing else to do back home basically :)
so finally i don't feel shitfuckingtired all day long, which i like very much. but ... that will make the falling asleep part that much harder.

hugs,
c.

title belongs to damien rice

beware, monster entry:
what a shitty day. i hope yours were better.

i had two interviews today, none of them really exciting or interesting.
and i finally gave up reading "i am charlotte simmons" by tom wolfe. what a horrible book ... this charlotte girl is the worst character in a book ever.
she turns from being the sweet, intelligent little girl into being a student with moral believes, who will still go off with a frat boy. only to loose her virginity to him, being all shocked when he drops her and going back home over christmas where she can't face her parents and friends because she feels oh so ashamed of herself.
seriously girl. get over yourself. things like that don't end the world. take a deep breath and next time, say no.
i am still 100 pages before the end, but i can't read one more line. she makes me furious. that's the first time i leave a book unfinished ...

second disappointment: i listened to cobra starships new album viva la cobra today. i really kind of liked their first album, perhaps because i love gabe saporta to pieces. but it was catchy and funny and whatnot. but on viva la cobra are so many songs that make me shake my head, it's unbelievable. cheers would rip me to pieces if would play any of it on dj night. and i would be pretty embarrased myself i think. gabe, honey, why are you trying to make nonsense electro-pop songs so hard?
yeah, so it was a dark day for me and my love for cobra starship. which probably concerns all of you not at all, but ... meh. don't care, had to bitch about it.

and what do normal girls do when they feel depressed? right, shoe shopping. (though i am no normal girl and my love for shoes is limited to chucks, i went shoe shopping)
i got myself new boots. and i like them. they are nice. i'll show you :) (ohmygod, after such a long time, a picture? yeah, a picture)


(they are actually REALLY brown, the white spots in the picture are my dirty mirrors fault *g*)

and since photoshop was already open, i post three long owed usa pics.
only three because i got bored after the third one hihi.

first picture was taken in las vegas, were it was unbelievably hot. still, there is a polarbear in the picture. which i think suits the fucking cold outside of my room quite well:


second one is me and alcatraz ... me=so much prettier than THAT!


third one is - guess what - again me! this time on the beach of santa monica. very pretty there, really pretty.


okay, i've said enough today. (you know why i did this? because the internet starts to bore me. what a dark day.)
see you soonish,
c.

title belongs to beirut

so. boredom overtook once again.

yesterday evening i spent with watching all 8 episodes of grey's anatomy's season 1.
such a junkie, i know. but i have to go from being the concert junkie to being the tv junkie again. concerts drain way too much energy. at least most of them do.

today is nikky's birthday, so sing for her when you read this. i didn't sing. sorry baby, i'll do it next time i see you (if you even want me to)

now i have to go search for some food. i am so not used to eating at home after last week. i think i'll settle for pizza. hm.

hugs,
c.

title belongs to kate nash

i feel so exhausted. so exhausted.

10 days are way too short.

c.

ps: i miss you

title belongs to guided by voices

okay, i didn't post in some time ... a lot of stuff happened, i won't mention all of it because it's non of the happy sort, but yeah. life is not always rainbows and butterflies as maroon 5 said.

i went to see the kaiser chiefs (plus the rakes afterwards) and my chemical romance last week, both awesome evenings for a lot of different reasons ... i missed having so much fun at concerts, even though i had to sacrifice two free mornings, because i had to go to the newspaper and write reviews. it left me really tired, but also very content. very content. thanks to all the people who have been there with me to dance, sing and feel the joy...

tomorrow i am going to see the editors, just for fun, not for work. i bet it's going to be really great :)
i'll probably won't write an entry before saturday, so ... have a great week people. 

hugs,
c.

title belongs to shout out louds

hey there,
not much to tell, other than the weather sucks ... a lot!
i waited way too long for the bus to work and from work so i wouldn't be surprised if my throat aches again tomorrow. because standing in the rain for 20 minutes? not so funny. (but yes, i had an umbrella (ella ella eh eh eh) ...

evening was nice. had american dinner ... even though they ran out of pasta and wouldn't give me my cheese macaroni, ... sorry r. for out on you :) i just love that stuff so much ... i had a cheeseburger instead, which was good enough *g*. but well ... cheese macaroni. i might shed a tear.

now i am only waiting for heroes to be ready and i will go to bed too late again, but what the hell. it's not that i have a lot to do at the newspaper tomorrow.
oh and title belongs to lostprophets.

good night my dear deers.
c.